Love, Life, Loss and how 6 years of Energy Healing held me….

Thank you for being part of our global healing community. I am so grateful for these six years we have shared bigger or smaller healing touch points together. 

I am writing a personal update out of love and deep gratitude to you who are traveling this journey with us. 

In my personal life, Universal healing is my guiding light. It has held me these past two years, when all things familiar and safe deserted me…. In the loss of my beloved husband Manel (our Founder), in my Mum’s journey of dementia and transition, healing breast cancer, surgery and supporting me in many huge changes in my life. 

I know the golden thread that kept me together was the multidimensional support of being in three Universal Healings a week. 

It was a network that caught all my pieces as they fell and presented then to me to put those that I wanted to keep back together, and find new pathways to rise out of the ashes to find a new path. 

I feel I breezed over the immense journey these past 2 years have taken me on. I do it to avoid the deep pain and heartache I lived, I can only say I have lived the unimaginable in my life. 

I met Manel Casanova in 2015 and was immediately in love, he was the other half of my being, my “soul mate” and love of my life. I moved from Cape Town to Boulder Colorado and over 9 years we lived and created the life we both dreamed of. The Foundation was deep, powerful love, and the respect and support we gave each other was a natural consequence. Manel sought enlightenment from when he was young, he climbed the highest peaks on earth and at times experienced glimpses of it up there at the top of the Aconcagua or Denali peak. He was a born healer and teacher and his time teaching in the Barbara Brennan schools in Florida, California and Colorado were a fulfillment of his life purpose in many ways. As was his need to leave the school and create his own forms of healing. 

When he went up that sacred mountain, the Pedra Forca, in his homeland of Catalonia, Spain on August 12th 2024 when we were in Spain planning a new life together of living between the Costa Brava and Boulder Colorado, I believe he found that what he had been seeking for so long. A full completion of a life lived so fully and passionately. He always said he was a Warrior of the Light and it was in the light he left his body. Knowing him, a perfect moment of “Divine Precision”, as he always said life was. 

But, for me, it was the unthinkable, when he did not come home and the search began, ending in the 2.30am call that they had found him and he was dead was the moment my life changed forever. Though I have lost very close family in my life, I never imagined the devastation this could was. It was as if my heart had been ripped from my body, I was just numb, walking through life, smiling at those that held me in love from across the world, unable to sleep, eat or think, a grief zombie. I could not return to our hometown, it was too hard, I could not go back to older versions of myself, or places where Manel’s light still radiated. I wondered from Spain to Boulder to Cape town to Bali, Greece and back again…. I lost 25lbs in 2 months, I did not recognize body or mind… I could not fathom a life without Manel. 

Widow at 51?! This was not how my life was meant to be!