Why Cancer made me choose life..

The Universal Healing Blueprint

Did Energy Healing cure my cancer? …. Yes and No!

I know this is a risky topic to put out there… even just the word Cancer holds so much. 

I know there are so many things you cannot (or should not) say, claim or write.  

But what is really appropriate when it comes to such a subjective journey. Can I even use the words “being healed”? Or is it only after 5/10/30 years you can lay such a claim…..? 

I was 52 years old. I thought I’d lived the hard stuff and hoped to find life again. I was a widow, Mum had just died. The Human Experience was holding me in a tight grip.

Honestly I was just numb. 

For almost a year I had been held in a web of LOVE.

Those that loved me, Manel, family and some that just heard my story and offered up unconditional love.

Everyone was trying to help me, I know this… They just wanted "Liz" back.

There were some who constantly repeated “You are so strong Liz, you will always be ok, you will get through this”…. I wanted to scream and scratch their eyes out… “No! Not only will I not be ok, I do not want to survive this loss!”. 

I was told all the stages of grief and how I would experience them, but when it came to anger, my rage was that he didn’t take me with him. 

Was I looking for an easy way to join him? 

The Day Everything Changed

Many things left my world with Manel, music, laughter, fun, my love for food and cooking. 

When I lost all that weight, which I could not regain, I had felt a lump in my breast, but I could not face the reality and consequences I intuitively knew it would bring. “Maybe it had always been there but I did not feel it in my juicier body” I hoped. 

But I decided to face it in Cape Town and went for scans, I was told in a brutal way that the doctor “would lay her head on a block you have breast cancer”. 

The perfect tool was here.  Breast Cancer.

It had resided in me as a deep fear, and then suddenly it was real, two lumps in my breast.

My older sister had died on her journey with it, my younger sister is a Thriver 11 years on, when it found her at 40 years old. My father and is 3 siblings died from it…..

“It is in your genes/ my DNA for sure” I was told for many years.

Was it a self fulfilling prophecy? Or did I create it as the “known” when life got so hard my body could not process it? 

Choosing Life 

Nothing shocked me more… I immediately said, “thats great, what I gift, now I can join my husband. The tough doctor laughed and said “it doesn’t work that way…”.

It was the depth of winter in Cape Town (mild for those who know snow and real cold) but I shivered and shook until I emerged in the summer heat of Barcelona 3 days later for the anniversary of Manel’s death with his family.

At this stage I was very in tune with Manel's voice whispering into my heart.

I heard that I have 3 clear paths ahead of me… 

1. Join him,

2. Fight with my body for the rest of my life, cut it, poison it, radiate it… or

3. Use it as my instrument of truth, love and healing. 

I already knew I was walking the third path and had been for years. 

And so began that journey. 

Everyone was, once again, so worried about me. They knew what I “MUST” do and these opinions were endless.

But I didn’t. 

All I knew was that I had been pulled out of may deep mourning and grief and had to find a way to live this life. 

“None of us get out of it alive”, as many masters (or perhaps AI) have said…

Its is just how long are gifted to walk this human experience. 

I used to say to Manel “we are so lucky to have found this path to health, through Universal Healing, lifestyle, love of our own and each other’s bodies. 

“I cant wait to be in our 80s or 90s loving each other in these amazing forms”. He would laugh “maybe, but I will die on the mountain no matter what”, he’d reply…..  which made me crazy.

Back in Spain I did all the testing, but deep in my heart prayed to be one of those miracles of spontaneous remission you hear about.

I just had no idea what was the right path for me. 

I know that all the all the science and statistics say that the “best possible route for survival is their protocols that applies to every woman of my diagnosis” . 

But I knew deep down that this was not a “statistic”. It was a multidimensional manifestation of all the things in my life that brought me to this point. 

Trust Kills Fear

FEAR was dominating everything. For someone who had always believed that the body is made to Heal, all you do is support it, I was at a loss.

I believe in natural health, energy work, ancestral clearing, food medicine, the power of the mind. I’d been a vegetarian, done yoga daily, ran, dance, therapy, breast care etc…

But now Fear permeated every cell in my being and all that Trust was forgotten. 

The narratives I had heard all my life played in a loop “It’s in my genes, my family”, “maybe it can just take me to Manel?  That is what I’ve asked for for a year” and so on. 

But life is bigger than us all, and for me this was a huge choice point - join him or live? It was not a debate, I chose life. 

I made friends with death fast, I know it is coming for us all and I welcome it (one day far in the future). From walking this path with Manel on the other side, I know it is a beautiful thing we all get to know.

But for now I need to live and do what it takes. 

All the opinions I held, I decided to be open to whatever I needed to heal. 

I know Universal Healing not only gave me my health back but the multidimensional capacity to trust and find my right path. 

I had to Trust my own voice and intuition to know what to do now. This is what I have practiced for, for all those years. 

Finding My Own Path

I went to Bali, unsure of what to choose… Surgery, radiation, natural healing? I knew life would lead me to find the best possiblity. 

I do not believe it was one thing that gave me cancer or that took it away. 

It was a combination of a lifetime of physical, environmental, emotional, energetic, ancestral stuff that manifested into 2 crystal like rocks in my right breast, there it was… all the pain, toxicity, disfunction, rage and unsayable things. 

I prayed, meditated, cried, called in divine help, danced with Manel in the stars, I did acupuncture, hypobaric chamber, infusions, breathwork, massage, humming…. ANYTHING to get rid of it. "Something show me the way!"

In a brand new International Hospital, a gifted surgeon removed it from my physical body as has been done through the ages. An old friend supported me in love.

I asked Titta and Benedetta, two of our very powerful healers, to hold me at the time of my operation. I was in the prep room with the surgical team, when suddenly, at 6pm the time i gave them, a team of spiritual guides, including Manel dropped down around my bed, smiling at me.

I did not remember anything from that moment, until i woke in my room.

I know these high beings of light worked with the surgeons in that time for the highest and best outcome. Our work is pure magic.

Then came months of recovery supported by the best of Holistic/ Integrative/ Ancestral, Energy Healing (especially the Universal Healings) took the rest.

Perhaps the most powerful of all was the primordial elements - the Bali sun, wind, sea and black earth and love of our little terrier Maya. Slowly allowed my fractured mind and soul to heal.

I just had to TRUST… and continue to do so.

What Cancer Really Healed. 

What is to come in the future is unknowable.

But these last two years I have lived a lifetime of important lessons and deep love that nothing can take away from me. 

I am a survivor, a thriver, resilient, vulnerable, open and free.

I am the creator of my health and my life. 

I am well and my body is thriving.

I learned all about her, this lifelong friend that I now live with in deep unity.

She is my home, my sacred vessel that gives me the capacity to be in this lifetime.

For so many years I criticized her, not thin or beautiful enough.

She is with me from my first breath to my last and living in her is such a privilege.

She was and is magnificent and has healed and regained power and strength (not easy in your 50s). 

All I know is what I’ve lived in this vast thing we call Cancer. It is Terror, Fear, Trust and a still a mystery to me.

What is it all about?

I don’t have an answer.

All I know it is a journey to walk, and so many of us are touch by it, in our body, our family or life somehow. 

I know for sure it was my brutal teacher, coach and therapist.

Love holds me, love heals me every day.

Especially the love I found for myself and this magnificent moment we call life. 

Living in Gratitude

In 2021 I worked for months to create this blueprint, an image that holds all that Universal Healing is about and for me, personally, what I want to be doing in this life. It is a visual for what I hold sacred and believe in. 

On my own cancer journey I often looked at it, the caduceus, symbol of healing, the black void of creation, the lotus rising from the ashes, the words that are also our healings.

It was on the wall behind Manel’s coffin at his big funeral in Girona.

It is an imprint for a life I want to be living.

And here I am. Here we are together.

A community that believes in the Goodness of Life, the Power of Energy, (the language of our Universe) and the Beauty of this Human Experience. 

I live in Gratitude and Grace. 

Love always 

Liz Bullen Casanova